Taste_of_Suburbia

So I'm trying to get some last minute writing done before the end of the year and then before the 5th as well, but I just stumbled upon absolute zero, then the laws of thermodynamics, then astronomy and through that cosmology (big freeze and heat death), and finally the fascinating concepts of entropy and thermodynamic equilibrium.

And ENTROPY... oh god, I could spend the whole rest of my life on this.
(And I suck at science btw)

WHY?????!!!!!

Really enjoyed Suicide Squad.

Not only was the acting great and the characters fleshed out beautifully, but I thought the directing, special effects and editing were all amazingly well-done, despite so many saying otherwise. The fact that David Ayer was able to introduce all these colorful characters and still establish an interesting (and simple not an overly convoluted or boring and filler) plot and give the audience such a wild ride is just AWESOME to me.

I was expecting having a lot of fun watching this film and that's what it was... a ton of fun. And what wouldn't be fun about a group of quirky, antisocial misfits? Definitely worth the time and the money, and don't let anyone convince you otherwise. 

Oh, and just because I can't not mention it: Harley Quinn (Margot Robbie) and Joker (Jared Leto) were to die for.

And I was very pleasantly surprised by Will Smith's, Joel Kinnaman's and Viola Davis' performances as Deadshot, Rick Flag and Amanda Waller. Overall, what a fantastically fun and beautiful film. 

So my time to get my Bachelor's is running down and suddenly things are getting a lot scarier. Pretty much since Elementary school I've always assumed I would get a Master's Degree, but now that I only have a year left I'm doubting it more and more.

First of all, I really just want to get another job and start working (even though the last one changed me and set me further back in a lot of ways and made me into a horrible person), since I'm miserable when I'm not making money. Second of all, I just found out that you have to take this GRE test and I've taken a sample and it's unbelievably difficult (even with studying), plus it's like $200, so now I just think that Graduate School is wholly unrealistic. My parents just told me that they were willing to pay for all of it, but this just makes me want to go less and less and less (since the guilt is eating me alive). Plus... writing is supposed to be my passion but I am really sick of writing papers and my motivation is dropping further and further every semester. 

Why does life have to be so goddamn hard? I have it easier than most and have all the support in the world, but I've been completely depressed and miserable since 2010 and there is no silver lining in sight. 

Update...

Charlie Countryman was pretty damn good, but I wish it had been longer and I think I wanted to like it more than I actually did. Except... Evan Rachel Woods was gorgeous (especially with accent), seeing a homicidal Mads Mikkelsen was a real treat, and Shia Labeouf is a fantastic actor (so much fucking emotion). 

Came home late one night and popped in Insurgent to re-watch. I saw it in IMAX in the theater and adored it then, and was pleasantly surprised that I loved it just as much on a second watch and on a second screen. Theo James is adorable as Four and Shailene Woodley is incredible as Tris (god, can she act). Plus TrisFour is just perfection. Still have to read the books....

Creed, the latest Rocky installment (and I am totally calling it that), was really good. I've never seen Stallone in anything I haven't loved, so I knew it would be, but he had so many scenes and I liked the other actors too, so of course I had to watch it again. 

Season 2 of The Middle was just as good and as funny as the first. Seriously, I have no idea how that show does it. I've been looking for a good comedy show for years and have tried plenty and have never found one even remotely as good as this one. 

Halfway through Season 2 of Z Nation and it's just as good as the first. To be honest, I like this series as much as I like The Walking Dead. I feel it's just as original and adds a certain lightness and humor that The Walking Dead doesn't have, while also adding in serious and heartbreaking scenes just as well as The Walking Dead. 

As far as books go, last month I read Theodore Dreiser's Sister Carrie for my Gilded Age class and adored it. Not only superbly well-written, but also almost a history book as it talks about the time period. One of the best books I have ever read. Frank Holt's Into the Land of Bones, a requirement for my Age of Alexander course, was also fantastic: easy to get through and interesting and Holt also making me want to attack his references and read more about Seleucid history especially. I'm currently reading Sinclair Lewis' It Can't Happen Here for my Fascism class and I hate it. Half of it is incredibly dull and the other half I can't even understand. I'm pretty picky on books in general, less so on Classics, and this book is gonna be hell to get through. 

And I finally read and just finished Richelle Mead's The Ruby Circle, and I swear to god that book was written for me. For those of you who aren't familiar with Richelle Mead's young adult books (her adult books are forced and terrible, okay, sorry), Vampire Academy is the first series and Bloodlines the second and a spin-off of Vampire Academy, with some major and some minor characters and even some new characters. Richelle Mead created this fully fleshed out and kick-ass world where half-vampire, half-human Dhampirs protect royal vampires, Moroi, from the evil Strigoi, or the evil vampires. If this doesn't sound awesome enough, she also creates the Alchemists, a religious organization that hides the vampire world from humans and work with the Moroi to do this (even though they claim all vampires are evil).

SPOILERS: These two series have EVERYTHING: resurrection, chases, vacations to Russia, wielding magic to heal and/or damage, murder, friendship, kidnapping, heart-melting romance and SO much more. The Ruby Circle, unfortunately, is the last book of the Bloodlines series. While VA started out as my favorite series (Romitri and Rose & Lissa), Bloodlines became my favorite by The Fiery Heart, primarily because of Adrian/Sydney. Sydney is a lot like me, especially with her obsession with ancient history, and Adrian/Sydney quickly became my favorite couple. Not only that but SPOILERS! by the end of the series they finally finally FINALLY get their happy ending and live in Northern Maine (so totally my dream state). See what I mean? Book totally written for me. They could have moved anywhere but they chose MAINE. Not only that, but it was totally my dream for Eddie to stay with them and I was completely expecting this not to come true and IT DID. Still crying over that ending, sobbing actually. 

Here's some music to brighten your day. 





Absolutely gorgeous instrumental piece. 

Probably should wait to blog until I've actually watched more, but I'm in the mood so....

I've started watching The Middle and I have totally found my comedy show! Unfortunately, I tuned in at Season 3 and almost watched half the season, but starting today I'm gonna go back to Season 1 and then Season 2 so I can try to watch it in order. Anyway, such a charming and funny series and I love how they're so negative and just want to lay around the house all the time instead of doing social things (totally like me). 

Also started watching iZombie and it's okay. I like it enough to keep watching it but if it doesn't get better then I'll probably drop it. Usually I like CW shows (Supernatural, Vampire Diaries, Originals, Beauty and the Beast, Arrow and probably others I can't think of right now), but this one is just meh.

I totally recognized Aly from Aly and AJ though, and she is gorgeous. When she said that line to Liv though: "You're my heart," I totally thought they were dating or had dated until I remembered that guy named Major. Seriously? Why would you have her say that line when it is definitely a gay line? So that pissed me off.

Another thing that pissed me off was bringing in Ty Olsson (Benny in Supernatural!) and having him be so cute and charming and then only giving him a couple scenes and making him a bad guy. And the whole type of bad guy he was just didn't sit right with me. Why couldn't he have been a minor character in the show? Few episodes? Thanks for getting my hopes up stupid show! And I know he played a bad guy in Arrow too but I never thought he would be a regular and that somehow didn't piss me off as much in that show. Dammit. So... frustrations and I'm still watching. We'll see how it goes. 

Okay, end of rant. 

And some pics because he is a serious cuddly teddy bear. 

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Finished Season 6 of Downton Abbey and I am so depressed that it's ended but really love the season too. 

Some things I loved: Anna and Bates having their own baby, Anna and Mary continuing with their best friends relationship, Tom trying to kill himself (you poor baby you!), Carson and Hughes domesticity, Branson coming back!, Lady Mary and her relationship troubles and selfishness and patching things up with Lady Edith, and Lady Edith! OMG I finally love you!

I finally finished the 1st season of The OC and adored it. It was rocky there for a few episodes with Oliver (really hated him), but then it started to get really good again. I especially love Seth, Summer, Marissa and Sandy (even though it was sad to see Anna go). I'm gonna try to save the other three seasons for the summer while I start watching Sons of Anarchy. 

Tea with Mussolini was awesome (it's always great to see Cher). 

So I have to make this post because I've been depressed and today was the best day I have had in years. 

First, I go to Goodwill Bookstore and find the last 2 Maximum Ride books I need (fucking love this series) and the complete series of The OC (4 separate seasons). Not only have I been trying to find this series for months now, but getting the whole freaking series for $20 at $5 a piece? Too damn good to be true. It's also a great sign too because this series really cheers me up, so the fact that I found it in its entirety means something. 

Then, I go to Dunkin Donuts to get my breakfast and lunch since I have classes back to back, and they're so friendly and I give them my coupon and something gets messed up and they're still so friendly... and they forget to charge me. Seriously, walked out with $7 worth of free food and coffee. 

Next I get to class and we're doing a group project and I get to talk with this girl who I like and who is actually super down to earth and nice. 

When I get to my next class I'm surprised how quickly the day is going, and my last class of the day this guy who I've kinda been crushing on asks me out. Seriously. And then we walk to the parking lot together and he takes my hand and kisses the top of it like a total gentleman and then gives me this huge bear hug ('cause that's what he's like... a big cuddly bear). Totally my day. 

And then I get home and my mom is super supportive (which she rarely is because she's overprotective and possessive), and she's like 'oh yeah, you can have the car all weekend' (which never happens w/o her throwing a bitch fit). 

And now Taproot's 'Shine' shows up in my head and songs always reflect my mood, not to mention usually try to tell me something too. And this is such a happy, positive, love-filled song for me. And one of my favorite bands, so very familiar :)

I feel like the universe is finally working for me :D

Burying myself in homework in order to ignore everything else. 

It works. 

Homework most of the day, but I did get to start reading Tempestuous, the third book in Lesley Livingston's YA faerie series. I always have to read books out of order, but this is the first series in a long while I've been able to read in order and all in the same year too... what a victory. 

Tomorrow I'll finish up homework and re-watch Buffy again and read more. Fuck writing right now, it's just too frustrating. 



Also... more Tori Amos. Video not mine. 

So my Fascism class is seriously convoluted and some of the stuff can get dry if you're not focused enough. Regardless, the ties with socialism, Marxism, liberalism and conservatism are pretty interesting, and Mussolini is just one of those ridiculously fascinating people. 

My Age of Alexander class is heavily on Persia, which is fine, for now, and my U.S. 1877 to whatever class is kinda a mix of a bunch of stuff, but at least the immigration stuff is pretty interesting. 

Think it's gonna be a good semester.