immolate_the_silence: Jake Green, Revolver, Books & Chess (Go Away I'm Reading)
So I am working my way through ALL the Grimm's Fairy Tales (Children's & Household Tales), all 200 of them or thereabouts. They are highly addictive and I honestly cannot cut myself off. I am also, because I love them soooo much, putting myself through a self-constructed fairy tale course, which means I'm not only reading the tales but also: 

a) Pinpointing the themes of every fairy tale
b) Reading biographies about the lives of the Grimm Brothers - there are only a few :(
c) Reading dissertations that I can get my greedy little hands on
d) Taking copious notes all the while
e) Giving myself assignments such as asking & answering important questions, researching early 19th century Germany (Holy Roman Empire & Kassel), analyzing important events in the lives of the brothers, understanding the appeal of the fairy tales for children and adults alike, familiarizing myself with the brothers' numerous other publications, and whatever else I can conjure up. 

You may ask why I'm doing all this and I will reply that: 
a) I am still in quarantine; it's been almost 2 months now. 
b) These fairy tales are so damn good, okay? They deserve far more than just a cursory reading. 
c) I miss taking college courses and who says you can't make up your own? I may even start writing papers because I'm a history grad and love writing papers. 

Thank you thank you thank you Terry Gilliam (and Matt Damon and Heath Ledger too, of course) for getting me obsessively into the Grimm's Fairy Tales; they're far better and more amusing than I ever could have imagined and I recommend them to everyone, no matter their age or interests. 

Endnote: 
For anyone interested in any of this, you can get Children's & Household Tales free on the Kindle App store with 200 tales and 10 legends and a very convenient table of contents and search feature. 
immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Mandy Lane)
(shamelessly stolen from nrgburst)
 
38 random things about me

1. Do you like blue cheese? eww
2. Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi all the way
3. Do you own a gun? no
4. Whisky, Tequila, vodka? Vodka
5. Hot dogs or cheeseburgers? Cheeseburgers
6. What do you drink in the morning? coffee with cream and sugar, and occasionally a glass of orange juice
7. Can you do 100 push ups? Definitely not
8. Summer, Winter, Spring, Autumn. Winter because it's cold but Autumn comes sooooo close
9. Favourite hobby? Writing
10. Tattoos? no
11. Do you wear glasses? yes
12. phobias? Spiders and bugs in general, but ESPECIALLY spiders
13. Nicknames? nope, not really
14. Three drinks you drink? Iced Tea, Coffee, Soda
15. Do you believe in ghosts? maybe
16. Biggest downfall? laziness aka lack of energy/motivation
17. Rain or snow? Rain, I have never seen snow though :(
18. Piercings? 1 in each ear
19. Age? 26, I feel old
20. French fries or onion rings? FRENCH FRIES!
21. Will 6 friends do this? highly doubt it
22: Kids? 0
23. Favourite colour? orange
24. Favourite crisp flavour? Sea Salt and Vinegar potato chips, the more vinegar the better
25. Can you whistle? I wish I could
26. Do you have brothers or sisters? I'm an only child
27. Ever had surgeries? If getting all your wisdom teeth pulled counts as surgery...
28. Religion? unsure
29. Shower or bath? Shower, as hot as it can go
30. Like gambling? I've never tried it
31. Are you a good friend? It's important to be
32. Broken bones? occasionally a broken toe
33. How many TVs in your house? 2
34. Worst pain ever? Menstrual cramps - I know, lame, but they can get pretty bad, though luckily it's infrequent. 
35. Do you like to dance? Yes, though I'm out of practice
36. Are your parents still alive? I would hope so considering I still live with them. 
37. Do you like camping? I've never tried it
38. Are you weird? And that's the only certain thing in my life. 

Just copy and paste and replace my answers with yours.
immolate_the_silence: image slideshow of Remy writing on his typewriter, Repo Men (Remy Writing)
Trying to write a drabble and it's like pulling teeth. Seriously, what is it with me and sticking to something 999 words or less? Every little idea spirals up to 2000-8000 words and it's just ridiculous. All I want to do is write an itty bitty drabble that is complete in and of itself.

Aaaand I am trying to upload gifs onto dreamwidth so I can do a nice little post and that's like pulling teeth too, days worth of it.

Ugh.
immolate_the_silence: Merrill dreamsliding, Vampire High (Blissful Merrill)
I don't think I've ever seen anything more beautiful...

illustration of a dusty swirl of particles spiraling in, with streams of glowing material spewing outward from the center


Quasar Tsunamis Rip Across Galaxies

Find the NASA post HERE.

Basically, they house supermassive black holes and are the brightest cosmic entities in the universe. They are also probably responsible for curbing the size of galaxies, since they devour them, and limiting the creation of new stars, since they also devour the materials that form them. "Anyone witnessing this event would see a brilliant celestial display. 'You'd get a huge light show—like Christmas trees all over the galaxy.'" = Wow, what a description.

immolate_the_silence: Claire Redfield battling the Axeman in Resident Evil: Afterlife (Red in the Rain)
so i accidentally smashed the top of my hand against the sharp edge of a piece of furniture, and right on the freaking bone, so i can't write because holding a pen = too much pressure and i can barely type either because of the added strain. who knew banging your hand against something could be this inconvenient?

but i guess it's okay since i have a bunch of stuff to edit; hopefully with minimal last-minute additions.

i won't even capitalize letters at this point because of the extra twinge.

ugh.

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Jan. 20th, 2020 09:15 pm
immolate_the_silence: Merrill accepting her dark side aka doppelganger, Vampire High (Dark Merrill)
"The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people shine the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't want anyone else to suffer the way they did." ~ Anonymous
immolate_the_silence: image slideshow of Remy writing on his typewriter, Repo Men (Remy Writing)
It's been a great year for writing, considering I wrote very little last year. Looking back, I actually only wrote in January of 2018 and didn't post anything else until January of 2019. Wow, considering that writing is my passion, 2018 really was a terrible year and a year I must have had zero self-confidence in myself, since I don't tend to write unless I have confidence. Anyway, I wrote a LOT of stuff this year, which I am VERY happy about. 48 fic were submitted to AO3 for a total of 147,426 words, so I'm counting that as my total.

Questions shamelessly taken from HERE, though altered somewhat. 

favorite fic you wrote this year
the corroding of the sun, Dark Angel, Alec/Ames
I've always wanted to write a mindfuck and viewed it as the unattainable until earlier this year. I remember sitting in my room one day and just having this spill out of me. Every time I go back to it I'm amazed.

Read more... )
immolate_the_silence: Vampire High (Essie - Contemplative)
Favorite Films You've Seen This Year For the 1st time (the year of release doesn't matter)

I'll Sleep When I'm Dead (2006)


I actually really loved this film despite that most people probably have never seen it because it hasn't gotten good ratings. I get why it would bore some people because it is very slow burn, but I think that's what I like most about it. I'm very impatient when it comes to films, especially as the years go by and I find less and less films I like (especially if they came out the year I'm watching them in), and will drop most films in the first fifteen minutes or so, but this film has kept me hooked the four or so times I've watched it. Before this film, I would have said that I don't like slow burn films, but I feel that this is the epitome of a slow burn and actually does it superbly well.

The characters are raw and real, whether emotional or emotionless. For me, Clive Owen's "It matters" is filled with believable conviction and is perfect for his numb, hopeless yet vengeance seeking character, while others might very well say its bland and stilted. Jonathan Rhys Meyers, while having little screen time, steals every scene he's in (let's face it, he's the reason I checked out the film in the first place, though I also really love Clive Owen). Jamie Foreman, however, gives one of the best performances I have ever seen when he stumbles upon his friend's suicide. It's heart-wrenching and difficult to watch and I really liked how this film showed the contrasts of emotional trauma, teetering between cold numbness and heated outbursts.

Okay, shutting up about this movie now.

The Adjustment Bureau (2011)
One of the best movies I have EVER seen, hands down. Matt Damon and Emily Blunt have possibly the best chemistry I have ever seen captured on film. Plus this is just so original and romantic and just beautiful. What a film.

Read more... )
immolate_the_silence: Merrill accepting her dark side aka doppelganger, Vampire High (Dark Merrill)
So my Halloween was terrible and horrible and the equivalent of a nightmare for me and I am going off to bed.

I will post my 3rd piece in my Halloween series tomorrow, since Halloween means nothing to me now and what does a day late really matter?
immolate_the_silence: Merrill accepting her dark side aka doppelganger, Vampire High (Dark Merrill)
So I normally don't post about my personal life on my journal because a) I hate my life and don't know where I'm going or what the fuck I'm doing and am severely depressed and b) this journal is a place of refuge for me to post about, occasionally, what makes me happy (I totally need to post more on that), but mainly this journal is an expression about the only part I (relatively) like about myself: my imaginative and creative side, which is nowhere near what I'd like it to be but oh well.

But I feel like I need to make this post for myself, to symbolize the close of one chapter of my life. Somehow, someway, I ended up in the wealth management field two naive, hopeful years ago. I, a History major. I had no idea what this field was or entailed and simply wanted to work. Plus, I figured it would be better than the only other jobs in my area: restaurants or retail. Let's just say it wasn't a perfect fit. It made me into a miserable, negative and bitter person; it made me feel not only inexperienced but inferior; it made me feel like nothing more than a slave at the beck and call of my masters and of the heartless, financial machine.

It nearly killed the creative side of me, and I nearly let it.

So, earlier this year, I left for a smaller firm. Like an idiot, I imagined that a smaller firm in the same field would be a better fit for me. And boy, was I wrong. Then again, learning from experience is sometimes the best way - the only way - to learn. Not only did I learn how people hide their true cruel and snobbish selves behind kind and grateful masks, spreading lies and sheltering ingrates, but I also realized that not everyone is fit for the wealth management field. I learned that there is a world outside of it (because apparently I had somehow forgotten that). I learned like the lid being taken off my coffin that I need not be buried under mounds of stress and worthlessness and depression.

And now, making this post, getting all this off my chest, I actually feel a whole lot better about it all. And I guess that's what writing is supposed to be: therapeutic.

So, mid-year resolutions, I guess I'll call them:

I will never in my life go back into the wealth management field, or anything finance related for that matter. I will no longer allow the phrase 'misery loves company' to win. I will no longer allow people to think they're better than me or smarter than me or try to make me into a pathetic, deceitful, soulless person. I will no longer let others walk all over me and treat me like a slave and critique everything I say or do down to the smallest, infinitesimal degree. I will no longer let people condition me into believing that there is no way out.

There is a way out and it's called quitting, it's called I deserve better than this, better than you, better than all this stress. I am not flawless. I do not nor should not know the answers to every possible question. I am not impenetrable and I am not nor should not be expected to be emotionless. I am a living, breathing, deserving human being with feelings and aspirations and needs.

And there, I said it.

To all of you out there who hate your job, who know it makes you into a small, worthless, inferior version of yourself, I drink to your health and happiness and pray you can get out.

And to all of you out there who are in the career of their dreams, or who know what they want to do with their lives and are pursuing it currently, you are honestly the most goddamn luckiest people in the world.

Because I still haven't figured it out. All I know is that I love History and writing and creating things and honestly, that isn't much.

So, for now...

To the close of one chapter and the beginning of another.

Thank you.
 

 

 

immolate_the_silence: image slideshow of Remy writing on his typewriter, Repo Men (Remy Writing)
So I just saw Avengers: Endgame and I am incredibly pissed off, upset and disappointed.

I feel like I was spat on, shoved into a dark corner and told to stay there for the rest of my life. I feel like my insides have been scraped raw. I feel insulted and like I should have always been emotionally un-invested and mostly I feel so so so so cheated.

I know I can't be the only one this infuriated. I wanted to feel like it's all come full circle but this? Hell, NO. Seriously, I'm going to have to shelve these Marvel films for a good few years or so until I feel like I can emotionally handle the whole franchise again. And even then, I will probably never consider Endgame as canon. Maybe not even Infinity War, which I was very proud of and attached to.

Damn Thanos and Damn the infinity stones.

Damn it all.

[End somewhat rant]

 

 

 

immolate_the_silence: Merrill dreamsliding, Vampire High (Blissful Merrill)
Going to see Micky Dolenz of The Monkees this Sunday. I'm so excited!!!


 

 

 

immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
So my mother decided at the last minute to give me a Christmas since I'm still living at home (I should have suspected judging by how many times she went to booksamillion). And I finally got to open my presents today!

I've been wanting Funko Pops for ages but haven't yet bought into the craze. Well, my mother sought to remedy that (probably after I reminded her that my obsession with Suicide Squad was not temporary). Imagine my amazement to receive both Harley Quinn (one of my favorite all-time characters), and my own little Eva Green!

Behold: Harley Quinn (Suicide Squad edition) and Miss Peregrine (Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children):
http://ep.yimg.com/ay/yhst-131532359532867/harley-quinn-suicide-squad-funko-pop-14.jpghttps://figurasdeseries.es/953-large_01oslo/muneco-funko-pop-miss-peregrines-owl.jpg

I also received a Suicide Squad bookmark, a Christmas Snoopy mug with a Woodstock plushie, and a pack of my favorite G2 pens in lovely colors.

And, per request, two brand new books that made my favorite series (Richelle Mead's Bloodlines) collection finally complete!:

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-hOZSBxxhfgU/UTV1P8fq2uI/AAAAAAAAJpM/F2lT076_FVE/s1600/The+Indigo+Spell.jpg          http://i.ebayimg.com/images/i/301510991079-0-1/s-l1000.jpg

And with my leftover Amazon gift card credit, I finally ordered those two End of Green cds I've been wanting so damn badly (both of them brand new and one of them a box set!)

http://www.nuclearblast.de/static/articles/221/221150.jpg/1000x1000.jpg     High Hopes in Low Places


Awesome Christmas for me overall! Hope everyone else's was likewise.
immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
So I'm trying to get some last minute writing done before the end of the year and then before the 5th as well, but I just stumbled upon absolute zero, then the laws of thermodynamics, then astronomy and through that cosmology (big freeze and heat death), and finally the fascinating concepts of entropy and thermodynamic equilibrium.

And ENTROPY... oh god, I could spend the whole rest of my life on this.
(And I suck at science btw)

WHY?????!!!!!
immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
Series

Supernatural (rewatch) - Season 4, Season 5, Season 6, Season 7 - All (6/6) (especially loved Season 7, and Season 6 was WAY better the second time around)
Lost Girl - Season 1 (6/6), Season 2 (5.5/6) - just 'cause something was missing this season)
The OC - Seasons 1-4 (Really happy how this show ended but really depressed that it ended :(   - Overall (6/6)
The Originals (rewatch) - Season 1 and Season 2 - both (6/6) :)
Black Books (5.5/6)

Films

Age of Adaline (6/6)
Suicide Squad (6/6)
Deadpool (5.5/6)
Star Wars (new one) (4/6)
The Boss (3/6)
Batman v Superman (3/6) - just 'cause Henry Cavill... u still make me swoon ;)
Ricki and the Flash (5/6)
My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2 (6/6)
Green Lantern (4/6)
Ant Man (4.5/6)
Cabaret (6/6)
My Fair Lady (5.5/6)
Season of the Witch (4/6)
The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 2 (3/6) - sooo disappointed
Funny Girl (2/6)

The Life Aquatic (rewatch) (6/6)
The Proposition (rewatch) (6/6)
Guardians of the Galaxy (rewatch) (5/6)
Revolver (rewatch) (5/6)
Inglorious Basterds (rewatch) (3.5/6)
Death Proof (rewatch) (4/6)
No Such Thing (rewatch) (4.5/6)

Up Next: The Secret Life of Pets, The Faculty, Allegiant
immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
Really enjoyed Suicide Squad.

Not only was the acting great and the characters fleshed out beautifully, but I thought the directing, special effects and editing were all amazingly well-done, despite so many saying otherwise. The fact that David Ayer was able to introduce all these colorful characters and still establish an interesting (and simple not an overly convoluted or boring and filler) plot and give the audience such a wild ride is just AWESOME to me.

I was expecting having a lot of fun watching this film and that's what it was... a ton of fun. And what wouldn't be fun about a group of quirky, antisocial misfits? Definitely worth the time and the money, and don't let anyone convince you otherwise. 

Oh, and just because I can't not mention it: Harley Quinn (Margot Robbie) and Joker (Jared Leto) were to die for.

And I was very pleasantly surprised by Will Smith's, Joel Kinnaman's and Viola Davis' performances as Deadshot, Rick Flag and Amanda Waller. Overall, what a fantastically fun and beautiful film. 


SS - Deadshot and Harley Quinn
immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
Series
Sons of Anarchy - Season 4 (4.5/6), Season 5 (4/6), Season 6 (so far - 6/6)
Z Nation - Season 2 (6/6)
The Middle - Season 2 (6/6)
Supernatural (rewatch) - Season 1 (6/6), Season 2 (6/6), Season 3 (so far - 6/6)

Movies
Sicario (5.5/6)
Hunger Games: Mockingjay: Part 2 (3/6)
The Hateful Eight (3/6)


immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
So my time to get my Bachelor's is running down and suddenly things are getting a lot scarier. Pretty much since Elementary school I've always assumed I would get a Master's Degree, but now that I only have a year left I'm doubting it more and more.

First of all, I really just want to get another job and start working (even though the last one changed me and set me further back in a lot of ways and made me into a horrible person), since I'm miserable when I'm not making money. Second of all, I just found out that you have to take this GRE test and I've taken a sample and it's unbelievably difficult (even with studying), plus it's like $200, so now I just think that Graduate School is wholly unrealistic. My parents just told me that they were willing to pay for all of it, but this just makes me want to go less and less and less (since the guilt is eating me alive). Plus... writing is supposed to be my passion but I am really sick of writing papers and my motivation is dropping further and further every semester. 

Why does life have to be so goddamn hard? I have it easier than most and have all the support in the world, but I've been completely depressed and miserable since 2010 and there is no silver lining in sight. 

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Apr. 1st, 2016 07:27 pm
immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
Well, this is the worst birthday I've had yet. To be honest, turning twenty-two makes me feel old anyway. 

I watched a couple episodes of Z Nation Season 2, which was great, and then I re-watched Insurgent after that. Unfortunately, it made me cry so much that my eyes are still itching... so probably not a good birthday choice.

I was bored the rest of the day so I decided to bake a cake. I never cook or bake because for some reason the food never comes out good, but my expectations for the cake were low enough that all I wanted is for it to have been edible... but no. Not even edible. The cake was more like bread than cake, and the frosting had no appeal. In addition, the sprinkles I got were too small, but at least I liked the dollar candles. That's what happens when you don't want to fork out $25+ for a cake. Dinner didn't come out that great either. 

So next, just to try to make my day a little bit better and because I haven't bought anything in months, I find two things I want on Hot Topic.com, except both are sold out in my size. I'm also pretty pissed because I'm part of their rewards program and I didn't get anything for my birthday (even though I did last year). Also, every time I wanted to order something in the past year it's never been in my size (what's the point of selling things then?), and I live too far away from a store to justify driving the distance on the 50% chance it's actually in the store (and if you call them they're rude and don't give you a straight answer). Gonna scroll through amazon shit now. 

Here's to next year with my liter bottle of Mellow Yellow. 
immolate_the_silence: Glowing Essie, Vampire High (Default)
Update...

Charlie Countryman was pretty damn good, but I wish it had been longer and I think I wanted to like it more than I actually did. Except... Evan Rachel Woods was gorgeous (especially with accent), seeing a homicidal Mads Mikkelsen was a real treat, and Shia Labeouf is a fantastic actor (so much fucking emotion). 

Came home late one night and popped in Insurgent to re-watch. I saw it in IMAX in the theater and adored it then, and was pleasantly surprised that I loved it just as much on a second watch and on a second screen. Theo James is adorable as Four and Shailene Woodley is incredible as Tris (god, can she act). Plus TrisFour is just perfection. Still have to read the books....

Creed, the latest Rocky installment (and I am totally calling it that), was really good. I've never seen Stallone in anything I haven't loved, so I knew it would be, but he had so many scenes and I liked the other actors too, so of course I had to watch it again. 

Season 2 of The Middle was just as good and as funny as the first. Seriously, I have no idea how that show does it. I've been looking for a good comedy show for years and have tried plenty and have never found one even remotely as good as this one. 

Halfway through Season 2 of Z Nation and it's just as good as the first. To be honest, I like this series as much as I like The Walking Dead. I feel it's just as original and adds a certain lightness and humor that The Walking Dead doesn't have, while also adding in serious and heartbreaking scenes just as well as The Walking Dead. 

As far as books go, last month I read Theodore Dreiser's Sister Carrie for my Gilded Age class and adored it. Not only superbly well-written, but also almost a history book as it talks about the time period. One of the best books I have ever read. Frank Holt's Into the Land of Bones, a requirement for my Age of Alexander course, was also fantastic: easy to get through and interesting and Holt also making me want to attack his references and read more about Seleucid history especially. I'm currently reading Sinclair Lewis' It Can't Happen Here for my Fascism class and I hate it. Half of it is incredibly dull and the other half I can't even understand. I'm pretty picky on books in general, less so on Classics, and this book is gonna be hell to get through. 

And I finally read and just finished Richelle Mead's The Ruby Circle, and I swear to god that book was written for me. For those of you who aren't familiar with Richelle Mead's young adult books (her adult books are forced and terrible, okay, sorry), Vampire Academy is the first series and Bloodlines the second and a spin-off of Vampire Academy, with some major and some minor characters and even some new characters. Richelle Mead created this fully fleshed out and kick-ass world where half-vampire, half-human Dhampirs protect royal vampires, Moroi, from the evil Strigoi, or the evil vampires. If this doesn't sound awesome enough, she also creates the Alchemists, a religious organization that hides the vampire world from humans and work with the Moroi to do this (even though they claim all vampires are evil).

SPOILERS: These two series have EVERYTHING: resurrection, chases, vacations to Russia, wielding magic to heal and/or damage, murder, friendship, kidnapping, heart-melting romance and SO much more. The Ruby Circle, unfortunately, is the last book of the Bloodlines series. While VA started out as my favorite series (Romitri and Rose & Lissa), Bloodlines became my favorite by The Fiery Heart, primarily because of Adrian/Sydney. Sydney is a lot like me, especially with her obsession with ancient history, and Adrian/Sydney quickly became my favorite couple. Not only that but SPOILERS! by the end of the series they finally finally FINALLY get their happy ending and live in Northern Maine (so totally my dream state). See what I mean? Book totally written for me. They could have moved anywhere but they chose MAINE. Not only that, but it was totally my dream for Eddie to stay with them and I was completely expecting this not to come true and IT DID. Still crying over that ending, sobbing actually. 

Here's some music to brighten your day. 




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